Monthly Archives: April 2011

Will I regret not giving a shit?

It was simple. I bought a refill for the reed diffuser in my room. But I don’t do that kind of thing enough, fill my home with things that make me happy. I’m glad I did it. It’s taking a … Continue reading →

What do I make of man who says, “okay, I’m attracted to you. And I feel like I should stop talking to you. But I like hanging out with you.” I’m all, “dude if it makes you uncomfortable then STOP … Continue reading →

Hot on the heels of my Christianity post, let’s talk about sex, shall we? Wouldn’t want things to get too stuffy and righteous around here. Forget what I said about Julian and I being friends with benefits. Sure, I could … Continue reading →

I am so grateful today for AA. It changed my life, it healed me, it continues to heal me every day. It led me to a higher power. God isn’t for everyone, I get that. I was one of those … Continue reading →

One of Martin’s best friends relapsed and died last week. He relapsed and was dead 12 hours later. It’s the sick sick part of this disease – it’s there, waiting to get us anytime. I’ve been talking to Martin about … Continue reading →

I hate Saturday nights. I get to spend time with my daughters, which is great, but after they go to bed, a long lonely evening stretches ahead of me and I start to feel restless, irritable and discontent. School nights … Continue reading →

Settlement coming together. May have entered into a “friends with benefits” style relationship with the head fucker. I feel weird about the fact that I don’t feel weird about it. Still sober.

I am a needy person. I hate asking for help, but I am just terribly emotionally needy. Especially with men. Actually, probably ONLY with men. And that’s a problem. I actually re-worked the 12 steps replacing powerlessness over alcohol with … Continue reading →

If you had told me a year ago that I would be attending a Southern Baptist church every Sunday and loving it, I would have told you to shut your damn face. But that’s what happened. I came into AA … Continue reading →