I’ve been furloughed for 3.5 months. I feel empty, alone, not like being around people.
Going to just hang by myself for a bit, try to get used to it. Julian is a lost cause, makes me feel worse not better (like a drug), Martin is being weird, dealing with his own shit, and I need to stay out of it. I need to stop relying on my male friends for distraction.
I need to just relax, to be okay with being me.